Out of Breath (5)

Estefany Sanabria

July 8^th, 2018

Blog 5 

This week was one of the best weeks so far. On Friday, we got the opportunity of going to this women’s home who treated us as if we were her children and it was so sweet. In her beautiful home, she has a labyrinth where tons of people go to find their “calling”. I had never done a labyrinth before, but I had seen and heard of them. I never imagined that something so simple could be used to speak to God. 

In the beginning of the labyrinth, I found that it was very hard for me to breathe. I felt like I had so much weight on my shoulders that I hadn’t felt in so long, since being at home actually. I have the weight of my family just having moved and not even being settled before my trip here to D.C. I have the weight of not having a job because I was taking 5 classes this past spring semester. I had the weight of my sister, who has a disability, starting high school this fall. I have the weight of thinking of where I’m going to try to transfer to because I currently attend community college and my 2 years are almost up. I have the weight of having to pay to go to school in a year and having to apply to universities that could help me the most, even if it wasn’t where I truly wanted to go. I have the weight of having lost some friends recently because we didn’t have the same life goals and just weren’t clicking anymore. 

I sat in the middle of the labyrinth. I prayed to my God, I asked for guidance and I asked for peace. 

As I walked out of the labyrinth, I felt like I could finally breathe. I felt like God was telling me, “don’t worry, when you get home, everything is going to be okay.” 

This Sunday, one of my bests friends came to D.C. for her school orientation. I felt so very happy because I love her so much and I felt like I needed a little bit of home that I miss so much. The thing that I miss the most from home is worshipping in Spanish and singing praise songs in Spanish. I feel like the rest of my time in D.C. (and New York) is going to be amazing because I’m going to be able to breathe easy.